The way things are now

Well in case any of you didn't know I've gone back to classes and to be honest I'm having fun so far granted its only the first week. Things at work haven;t changed much, no official word on the management position yet. However, we did hire a new guy the other day and to be honest at first I didn't know what to think he's really into the goth subculture and while I haven't seen him wear the makeup yet he has piercings and such. Well two of the managers at work were telling me that from what they know he is really into God and everything. At first I didn't believe them, part of my human failings showing up, but God has for awhile now been getting me to the point where I don't just write people off.

So I trained this guy on Tuesday and I would have to say that he is one of the most unashamed people I've met in awhile when it comes to God and just who he is as a person. So we got to talking and I learned some stuff about him that if I were to just write him off I would never have known. So I'm thankful that God brings these people into our lives sometimes to shake things up a bit.

A little back story before I start another story. Well for awhile now I've been struggling with some old things and a fear of sorts about standing up and being counted, a lot of that had to do with these old things. So on Wednesday at service Mark brings in this cross right and after a lesson and some discussion he tells everyone to bow their heads and close their eyes and proceeds to give us the opportunity to come forward and in both a physical and spiritual sense nail things to the cross. You know how sometimes you're not sure if you should go up and then other times you know beyond doubt that you had better jump up there, well that was one of those you'd better jump up there times for me almost before Mark stopped talking I was up there.

I know its only been a couple of days since then but I know without doubt that those things are left there. I've my commitment to not only "be a Christian" but to follow after God and to fight when and where He tells me to. I don't know what God will have me do but I do know that when He tells me I'll do it.

So one of the questions that I have know is, how do you know if God is calling you to do something? Can it be like you hear about something, such as an injustice somewhere or something like that and a fire roars up in you? I don't know but if it is what I feel then I might one day become involved in politics not to pursue my own goals but to be kind of like Josiah in the Old Testament, who turned God's people back to Him by tearing down all the high places or something like that. Like I said I'm not sure but thats been in the back of my mind off and on for a while. I would ask those of you who believe to pray for me so that I might know what God would have me do, because what I need now more then anything is direction.